Making it all up.

why is it, when i do something for myself, finally, i get depressed, when doing nothing for me, and just sitting around makes me feel okay? im really upset right now, and i have no idea at all why. im bored. and sick ,i need to study, but i don't know why, but i just can't seem to get up and do anything, i'm so drained, i just sleep, thats all i can do right, and it's really driving me up the wall. i used to like doing stuff. i dont even want to see my friends. i just want to sit here. and do nothing. i dont even know if i'm sad , or if my eyes are blurring. -__- maybe its all just in my head, and im making it all up.