Internal Darkness of early Morning.

I'm hero of my story I don't need to worry.It was little odd morning ,As usual i started watching movie at 3'o' clock in morning and after that I did the usual things and it so happened the Usual things turned out to be Unusual.

This Unusual Even gave me oddly enough reason to shape the day unusual .

1->Tried sleeping,Failed!
2->Had Breakfast.
3->Brushed (without giving second thought)
4->Took bath.
5->Again Tried sleeping,Failed.
6->Odd Feeling and thoughts.
7->Unusual Thought.
8->Oddly it's raining in afternoon.
..


Why is it that i finding difficult in Trying to Smile.
I shouldn't have Felt this way,I apologize to myself.


I'm The hero of the story I don't need Worry.

Fifa Fantasy

I Chose Italy as my team this year,As most people chose Spain , Argentina,England. I have a habit or rather wanting to not do the same as others do,I don't if this is right habit or wrong,But i want to do it and i do it.

I Hope Italy faces Netherlands in finals and nails them down :D. I Find Italy as very stable and slowly rising and performing at situation when it's needed. 

Good Luck Italy." Idly khaney ka khelney ka khelney ka khaney ka." Yes,Idly can be other reason for me choosing Italy as it rhymes :).

Orkut's Today's fortune: Time is the most valuable thing a man can spend .


I m verrry rich boy,I say.

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I m No superman.

Me:Hello

Shilpa:hey wassup?
how ru?

Me:I m good.
How is You ?

Shilpa:im fine
life is all same

Me:I expected you to be n best of ur health considering the fact u so sporty ..
how is karate going ?
You Were into karatey ,Rite ?

Shilpa: i got black belt
its karate

Me:They don't give white belt ?
yellow yellow ?

Shilpa:im trying to train myself for the next belt

Me:is it wrong if i say ..Karate with extra stress at end ?

Shilpa:white is the 1st n then yellow

Me:why do u want belt ?
You wear loose cloth ?
They give belt for free ?

Shilpa:belts help me participate in tournaments

Me:even i have belt..

Shilpa:but i earn my belt

Me:And i Buy ..

Shilpa:yup karate dress is loose
good for u then
 which coll ur in?

Me:I Don't go to college

Shilpa:then wt u do?
u finished ur studies?
y u dont go to coll

Me:No i didn't start ..
i don't like college.
teachers scold me..

Shilpa:wait a min..... i dint understand. tel it clearly

Me:No i can't tell clearer than that ..I feel bad..

Shilpa:arre teachers scolding u is something new for u or wt?
its okie u can tel me
wt happened?

Me:I went to college and ma'am scolded me and the building is too huge..I m scared of beg building ..Wat if i loose myself :( ..

Shilpa:so........?

Me:Then she told Boy like u should not come to college..
I followed her words..
Now i just stay back at home ..
and eat
and talk on facebook
then i go offline ..
and I Come back again Online..
i sell tire lubes

Shilpa:im no fool sumit. pakka thz is not d reason
tire tubes?
dude wt a twist in life.........
crazy ur

Me:no, tire lubes..
not tire tubes..

Shilpa:wt is lubes?

Me:tubes sell is less in market..

Shilpa:hahaha

Me:Can u sell tire lubes for me ?

Shilpa:wt is tire lubes sumit

Me:i will give u complementary bucket full of paint remover

Shilpa:arre wt ru telling

Me:tire lubes u don't it's like like slimy liquid
i m telling the truth ..
is it tasting bitter ?

Shilpa:wt is it used for?

Me:it seem truth tastes bitter

Shilpa : na its not tasting bitter n u havent changed at all

Me:I also sell potato bonda in evening ..
No i have changed now ..
i work very and night ..
workiing working working ..

Shilpa:i wil find u a better job

Me:Will You relly ?

Shilpa : i know a frnd who can help in job matters

Me:what job ?

Shilpa : may b in a call centre or something like tat
i know u speak good n im sure u wil get d job easily
u want me to speak to him?

Me:no in call centre they make call..
i m scared of calls
they call and abuse
i don't want to get abused...
No don't speak to anyone ..
I m happy selling tire lubes

Shilpa:then wt kind of job u want?

Me:I don't want job..
i want to study ..
in college where teachers don't abuse..
I have to sell two truck load of tire lubes this month for living.. (send as a message)

Your chat message wasn't sent because Shilpa is offline.

This is second part

Me:no in call centre they make call..
i m scared of calls
they call and abuse
i don't want to get abused...
No don't speak to anyone ..
I m happy selling tire lubes

Shilpa:then wt kind of job u want?

Me:I don't want job..
i want to study ..
in college where teachers don't abuse..
I have to sell two truck load of tire lubes this month for living..
Your chat message wasn't sent because Shilpa is offline.

Shilpa:ru there?

Me:Yeah ..

Shilpa:so had dinner?

Me:No ..I eat late..
Yu still play kabbdi ?
kabbadi*

Shilpa:i dont play kabbadi
i play football

Me:Are u good in football ?

Shilpa:yup im good in it

Me:I suck ..
I suck at football..
All Run around one Ball.

Shilpa:hahaha

Me:You represent ur college ?

Shilpa:yup coll n state as well

Me:State
Bah Nice ..

Shilpa:yup state

Me:You Run fast ?

Shilpa:pretty fast

Me:I can't run ..
I can't run faster than i walk..
i m fat now ..
82 kg
I want to be 92kg and advertise in vlcc

Shilpa:82?
hahaha
but krish told ur thin

Me:No i didn't meet him from long time ..
i have been working on my weight and running speed with tire lubes on head

Shilpa:i guess u met him in the recent reunion

Me:here working means ..increasing weight..
Yeah ..That time i was 71
some oneand half month over..
I m not sure about 82 ..
But yes i m fat
like FAT

Shilpa:hahaha

Me:What u studying ?
U know to make vada pau ?

Shilpa:I donno to make vada pau
im doing my degree in humanity

Me:Humanity ?
that is why u being so human
or else who pities my condition ..
no one even buys tire lubes

Shilpa:very funny sumit
wt r they used for?

Me:They are used in tires
lubes..
are lubricant used in wheel

Me:Will u sell truck load of lubes ?
i will gift paint remover..

Shilpa:no pa i cant sell so much

Me:What can u sell ?
will u buy my belt ?
i will write on it ..earned belt and give..

Shilpa:okie i wil buy a belt for u

Me:No i want to sell my belt
why should u buy for me ..
why should u buy for me ..

Shilpa:i donno
i dont want to buy ur belt

Me:Buy one i have white belt

Shilpa:ayyo go dont irritate me now

Me:No i not irritating ..
I m dying ..

Shilpa:ur

Me:I m grey
i loosing my blood
i m turning white
my skin is pale ..
uh ah i m dead
Yu killed me ..
can u get me into any job ?
zz
not job i mean into any college ?

Shilpa:i havent become tat great to get u into a coll but i wil surely try

Me:No don't try ..
u tell whether u will get me into college or not ..
i m going to drink poison soon ..
i can't sell truck load of lubes all my life

Shilpa:i think i can

Me:which college ?

Shilpa:eh shup up now
reddy coll

Me:If u think u can then get me into one ..
no not that college ..
mukul studies in that college..

Shilpa:i can get u into tat coll by influence okie

Me:will you get me into that for free?

Shilpa:no other coll i can get u into

Me:what influence ?
cricket influence ?

Shilpa:if u were a reddy u would hav got it for free

Me:i don't want anything for free

Shilpa:ministers influence
hey u r too much

Me:which ministed ?
education ?
U know minister ?
I want to meet prime minister..I m not khan ..

Shilpa:even i cant meet the minister

Me:I can Meet minister ..If i want ..He is public servant ..I m public ..so he is my servant..

Shilpa:yeah he is ur servant

Me:He is not ur servant ?

Shilpa:arre shut up now
u r irritating me so much n im getting irritated like a fool

Me:You don't understand my problem ..

Shilpa:wts ur problem?

Me:I thought u will understand because u doing studies in humanity ..
No college and no employee to sell tire lubes..

Shilpa:go eat someone elses head

Me:Why You don't have any,I thought only your head is edible.. ?
Holidays going on ?
You don't believe me ?
You are a fail student of humanity ..
go Join some other course ..Race course will be better..

Shilpa:yup i hav holidays
n i dont like humanity okie
im just doing it for a sake of having a degree

Me:Then what u like ?
vade pau ?

*Missing messages will miss forever..*


Today with same girl..

Shilpa:Go Jump.

Me:Where?
On floor or from floor ?

Shilpa:On Floor.

Me:No,No point jumping.. I come back on floor,I never fly like spiderman.I m not spiderman.




*Few Missing messages*


Shilpa:eh dont call now
call in the morning
he wil pick okie

Me:No he won't pick ..
i feel like crying ..
i have no friend ..
i stay alone ..
no one talks to me ..

Shilpa:give me ur number. i wil talk to u

Me:No Don't talk ..
I don't have virgin mobile ..I don't get paid for incoming..

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Today I kill a Lizard ..Yes I killed  it knowingly with slight guilt before action .

Story begins Like this ..I entered rarely used room and closed the Door , Then i moved few steps front and I looked up , on wall i saw a white translucent skinned tailless lizard crawling . I saw it's eyes looking at me i felt pity at sight of it having no tail then after having done my work i turned back .I saw lizard's half body between the closing line of doors ,I knew it's body would have got crushed i opened the door with feeling of guilt and that lizard fell on floor without making any sound , it's center of body was completely squashed i wanted to ignore and move but couldn't see it's pain,it was unable to move although it was trying . At this moment i thought of killing it instead of letting is live with such pain . i moved my foot over it and in shade of my foot that lizard tried escaping understanding my motive . it failed to move after some one minute i let my foot drop on it's body and pressed it Hard and It died.It showed No motion . It's life was Over .

I don't know what i did was right or wrong ..maybe it was it's life and it wanted to live .Now that i have killed it all i have got is to admit to myself of choosing to kill.

How Does one decide what would be right when all things seem wrong . 

May it's soul Rest in peace !